LIFE | When Defeat Looks Like T-Rex But Becomes One of The Biggest Lessons You'll Ever Learn

That would be the only explanation I can come up with at the moment. I'm so with the being more mindful and living in the moment. But it's not something about being about, it's actually practicing it. Not picking and choosing which moment but not doing so has caused me to miss "my chance" (in my head) and start over-analyzing my past decisions, more than once.

Quick scenario: You meet a bomb @$$ dude really quick and you become so caught up in what you want and distracted by your surroundings you miss what's in front of you. Yeah, not the first time but the SECOND TIME. Isn't there a quote about mistakes and the first time so when it's the second time it's your fault. Totally how I feel about the situation. So then you get to the point where you're trying to fix it. You make calls and you seem to try, maybe trying too hard (question mark face). 

Being Me. Bubbly. No Worries.

But then you ask your friends...I repeat, You Ask Your Friends. Incoming on all the opinions that you asked for. It becomes a what should I do to, what exactly was I doing anyway. What you were going to do becomes a Lindsay, Lessie, Jaielle, Asia, Empress, Bzy, Neveah, Ashley, Sherm, MT, Sandy, Tavis said this and then you get a little confused. The once confident, bubbly, conversationalist becomes equipped with the fear of rejection and feels DEFEATED.

Oh and you can't forget you try to find everything wrong with him, so you're no longer attracted to the dude and you feel released from the situation. But then you get another turning point and it's a, "No, you're even more attractive, so I should try." But you don't want to because remember what your friends said. 

I didn't choose the life, the life chose me. (sistacousin tattoo #2)

Just then when you feel like you're getting to the lowest point of CrushVille, you get this sudden awareness of something bigger than getting the digits or starting this new found friendship, you get this...MINDFULNESS. You slip a little bit, but you do feel better moment by moment when talking to the right people, reading but most when you write it out. 

I'm not sure what will happen, but I know I won't forget him. I'm also very sure I'll be writing about this again, in more of a humorous way.

As I finish this now all I can think of is the talking part on Alicia Key's U Don't Know My Name.