Celebration. Reflect. Dance on Couches. Sit on Tables.

It is right? So we’re supposed to dance…correct? I have the tools so I just make it happen right? But you don’t just leave off something and start a new, you finish it out no matter what. I keep telling myself this because obviously it’s almost over but simultaneously beginning. 

I proved something so big to myself but if I keep going there won’t be a question of it. Once again, it goes back to that Jay-Z line. Got Mad At It…And Don’t Want It Nomore. I wouldn’t say mad because it’s truly been one of the best experiences and I really wouldn’t say I don’t want it anymore because if I got that call today, I’d be OUT…or would I?

Notice so many questions after the statements. With a flow of new ideas, meeting new great people and God showing me what I am really capable of it’s really mindblowing. I’m not where I want to be just yet, but I have dreamed of experiencing things like this. Traveling, having friends name Gina, Koko, Nancy, Kema and my bestfriends since third grade and eating new foods and being familiar with different cultures was something I’ve always wanted.

Throughout this time, it’s been a struggle with many things. Finding out what I want to do if…finding out where…and then noticing and listening to God, my heart and my peers it’s just been an aray of things going on. Trying so hard not to quit even after negativity. Putting my pride aside to do what I have to do and really understanding what my mama says when she says, “You’re building character and integrity.” THAT’s WHAT I WANT. I want to make my family proud and I want to be the best Tatiana I can be.

Now it’s time to keep going. There’s really no end to this. I feel good at this moment in time and so grateful of all my opportunities and all the people who think of me when they see something they may think I would be interested in. Shout out to Danielle who tweeted me a link. I really appreciate that!